Much like love, creativity is a choice, you have to choose to be creative, you need to decide in your own mind that you will be creative, and the feelings of excitement and motivation will follow.
Presenting is actually a crucial design skill, one that you can be good at with intentional practice.
You will never lack for a sense of fulfillment in your work as long as you have your own passion projects to pursue.
Avoid the trauma to your creative self, and learn how to use trends to your advantage without selling your artistic soul.
You will save yourself a ton of time and headaches if you are sure to get content before you start to design or layout anything.